April 29, 2013

Smile

  If this picture doesn't make you smile, then something is wrong with you. (kidding! sort of...) Levi is such a happy boy. Even when he's sick and stuffy he manages to smile. When I'm stressing out and I feel overwhelmed just seeing this baby smile makes it all better...
  I developed an umbilical hernia after having Sarah (4 years ago) but I didn't notice until this last pregnancy. My OB recommended surgery but I had decided to wait it out because that would mean I wouldn't be able to carry Levi for 2-4 weeks after surgery. Well in the past I have gotten REALLY bad stomach pains + bloating after eating and then laying down sometimes. To the point that I bend over and cannot walk. I know that this is not normal and it would usually go away after about 2 mins or so but now this pain has been more frequent. It didn't hit me until this weekend that it could be related to my hernia. I have noticed my hernia feel bigger but I didn't think much of it. Well this weekend I got the horrible pain again! I finally decided to make an appointment which is tomorrow to schedule my surgery. I'm not gonna lie, I'm scared. I've never had surgery before. I'm nervous but most of all sad that I won't be able to breastfeed my son or carry him for a couple weeks. 

His smile makes me happy. It helps me feel better. His smile brightens my day... even when all I want to do is worry, stress out and cry. I just look at his smile and I can't help but smile back.
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5 comments:

  1. Cindy, I'm so sorry about all the trouble and pain you are going through right now. It is very hard and crazy to be a mommy to two toddlers and a newborn! I will be praying that you will be carried in God's Hands these next couple of weeks! Don't feel bad, and try to knock down the lies Satan will tell you -- you ARE a wonderful mommy! Even though you will not be able to nurse your baby and things will be hard, God sees all you are doing and He is pleased to call you His daughter. Love you!! Praying and praying. I know you are super brave!! You can do it!! xoxo

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  2. those smiles would brighten up any day! hope all goes well with your surgery (healing hugs) Faythe @GMT

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  3. What gorgeous pics - had to smile :-) Good luck with the surgery Alice x

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  4. Hi! I ran across your blog on Young House Love today, and I have to say he has the sweetest face ever! He is such a handsome guy and I love his hair! haha. You have a great blog, and I can't wait to read more!
    PS, I hope your surgery went well!

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