September 22, 2011

My Son Joshua

I usually don't like to share too many personal things about myself or my family here 
on the blog but today is my son's 5th birthday and I am just so thankful for the five 
wonderful years God has given my son! I have learned so much through him and
 have seen many of God's great wonders in him ever since the day he was born. 
And I want to share my gratitude and my joyfulness for everything God has done:

Shout for joy to the LORD, all the earth.
 Worship the LORD with gladness;
   come before him with joyful songs.
 Know that the LORD is God.
   It is he who made us, and we are his;
   we are his people, the sheep of his pasture.
  Enter his gates with thanksgiving
   and his courts with praise;
   give thanks to him and praise his name.
 For the LORD is good and his love endures forever;
   his faithfulness continues through all generations.
Psalm 100

You see Joshua was born with a submucous cleft palate which is a type of cleft 
palate that is not visible because it is covered by the lining of the roof of the mouth.
The last thing you want to hear when you give birth is that there is something
wrong with your baby. I didn't understand why he was born with this and
I cried, I cried and I cry today just remembering the pain I felt when they told
me I couldn't breastfeed my child because he had a deformity and they brought
us (my husband and I) special bottles which we would need to feed our son.
I still remember that day, we found out the second day after trying and trying
to breastfeed unsuccessfully. The nurse put her finger in our son's mouth
and found what she had suspected but didn't tell us right away. She came back
with different looking bottles and as I sat there holding back tears we listened to her 
explain to us how to use them. She left and then we got visitors and I still
had to hold it in and then as our visitors were talking I burst out in tears. 
The next couple of weeks/months were hard trying to learn how to take care
 of a newborn baby as well as learning how to feed him correctly to make sure
 the milk wouldn't come up out of his nose (which is common for cleft babies).
When Joshua was about 5 months his palate muscles strengthened enough
for him to be able to use a normal bottle and I thank God for that! We were 
told he would end up needing surgery at one but because of certain
 circumstances he ended up having surgery January 2010 at three years old. 

"So do not fear, for I am with you; 
                           do not be dismayed, for I am your God. 
                               I will strengthen you and help you; 
                      I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

Isaiah 41:10
He is such a brave little boy, he never cried, complained or whined
through the whole process! I am amazed and thankful for what God did
in Joshua! I know that God heard our prayers as well as all the people
praying for him and his surgery! It has been almost 2 years since his 
surgery and his speech has improved tremendously. He has been going
 to speech therapy and It is amazing to hear his wonderful little voice and
to hear his funny jokes clearly. He still has minor speech problems
but I am so thankful! I'm just thankful he is alive and well and it's 
something I couldn't say back when I gave birth to him. I thought
it was the end of the world then but his small problem was such a 
blessing in disguise! God is just AMAZING!!
I have learned so much through my son! I LOVE him so much!
I've learned that God has a purpose for each and everyone of us.
He is our creator and he has a reason for why he does what he does.
Many times I prayed wanting God to heal my son, for him not to get surgery!
Through a bible study session with our youth from church once I learned God's 
answer isn't necessarily always what we want. He ALWAYS answers our prayers
 but in his time or maybe his answer is simply no. God knows what is best for us. 

"This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if 
we ask anything according to his will, he hears us." 
1 John 5:14

I know God has a purpose for Joshua, and I understand that now. I may not know
 exactly what it is but I trust God will fulfill it in him. I thank God for the beautiful 
lessons I have learned of patience and love through Joshua. I thank God for the five 
wonderful, amazing years that God has allowed us to share with Joshua. 
I pray that God will help me be a better mother to him so that God's purpose
will be fulfilled in Joshua and that he will ALWAYS remain in his ways.

I asked Joshua to say this verse this morning:
" I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; 
                    your works are wonderful, I know that full well." 
Psalm 139:14

Love, Mom



  1. What a sweet boy! Truly a gift from God. I'm the same way about sharing personal info about my children, but maybe you will be able to help someone out in the blogging world. Your son is such a handsome guy! Hope he has a very happy birthday!

  2. Thanks for sharing this amazing story about Joshua. Hes a very brave and handsome little man! :) Happy birthday buddy!

  3. First off, this is such a beautiful and touching post. Thank you for sharing it with us, seriously. It made me smile and tear up.

    Second, I love your love and adoration for God and his plans. It shows through this post ... yet another thing that made me smile.

    Third, happy birthday to little Joshua (who is not so little anymore, huh?) I have a 5 year old daughter ... and am still amazed at how fast she has grown, as I'm sure you can relate!

  4. That is precious. What a sweet brave little man. Happy 5th Birthday to Joshua!! :)

  5. Happy Birthday to your son! thank you for sharing his story. I'm so happy to read that he is doing well.

  6. Cindy, thank you so much for sharing your wonderful entwined stories of faith and love and trust. I have a couple "special needs" kids and learn still from them in adulthood. Praise God!
    Happy Birthday Joshua!!

  7. Happy belated birthday you for lil' man! What a cutie!

  8. wow... i love your blog!! Joshua will grow up to treasure this.. :)

  9. This is SUCH a beautiful story!! I hope that you guys had a wonderful time celebrating such a precious life! He is going to grow up to be such an incredible man of God!


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