May 7, 2013

What I'm Afraid Of

Today's prompt:
The thing(s) you're most afraid of
   One thing you should know about me is I'm pretty paranoid. My sister and I used to watch shows like 48hrs where they solve murders and such. I'm pretty sure that's why I'm so paranoid. I observe people and my surroundings when I'm out. Always keeping a watchful eye for those "creepers". I plan exit strategies in my head "just in case." I guess that's a good thing but I do it because the thing I'm most of afraid of is someone hurting my family. Someone taking my kids! When I heard about the shooting in Sandy Hook I was terrified! I mean you would think your kids are safe at school but then some creep just goes in and takes innocent lives! 

   I realize I CAN'T control everything. I realize I CAN'T keep my kids safe at all times but there is one person who can! I pray each and every single day before I drop my son off at school. I pray for my son's safety, for my husband at work and for us (Sarah, Levi & I) at home. I pray God is with us wherever we go. I may sometimes do it in a rush when we are running late but I will NOT leave the house without praying. Why? Because I TRUST God! Because I KNOW he listens and I KNOW only he can keep us safe no matter where we are. So even though I'm human and I worry and I am afraid, when I leave those worries and fears to my Father, I know I can rest assured he is watching over us and I am at peace.


  1. I know and have those same paranoid fears and I don't even have kids! I, too, look for those potentially creepy people (probably from watching too many crime/police shows, too--except I watch the fictional ones, not the real ones, those are too much for me!). Anyway, I LOVE how you ended this post because it is SUCH a comfort to have God who looks out for us and is always with us. :)

  2. oh my gosh. the world is so scary these days. your fear is totally justifiable. how sad is that! blah.
    i hope you and your kids are always safe and together as well :)
    {i always get paranoid that someones following me. yeesh!}

  3. This is soooo crazy - I am the SAME way! Chad makes fun of me every time, I always say "Plan for the worst so your happy for the best" or he will make fun of me for always looking over my shoulder, or for coming up with crazy scenarios in my head. Glad to know I'm not the only silly billy crazy girl out there!

    And your right - I don't think there is anything worse than taking an innocent life. Makes me absoutely sick.

  4. I'm the same way! I used to watch all the datelines + 48 hours until I got a revelation in the form of Philippians 4:8. I love that scripture so much and actually have it up in my house, but I hadn't really internalized it until I realized how I was subconsciously fueling my paranoia by watching and reading about so many negative things that happen in the world.


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